I'm Back - Happy Birthday to me...

No updates since Monday night? Damn! And I was getting so good and reliable too. What's happened since then? I hung out with Tian & Tatz a while. Did the Wal-Mart thing twice. Got slammed at work last night... and expect to get slammed again tonight. It's a weekend, the first of the month... and a holiday. It's going to be a hell-night tonight. No big deal. I can handle it.

Tian informed me that her neighbor wants to go out with me. I met the woman once - didn't say 3 words - and now she wants me to move in a vacant apartment in between her & Tian's apt. Damn! I asked Tian if she told her I was gay. Tian did - and all she said was that all I need is a "real woman" and I'll straighten out. LMAO! I've heard that before.. and I don't think so.

More innuendo with BJ - more bitching w/ Pa. Some things will never change. Heard a message from Ann (Casey) today. She had the 2nd stint placed in her heart and is feeling like a new woman. I really need to write or call her. I miss that lady.

Got invited to a cook out for next weekend at G & H's. Should be interesting. I used to mess around with G's brother (off and on) for a long, long time - I was his "other woman".. and I even did the deed with G once (drunken impulse - much regrets).. We've been friendly and socializing, but I've purposely tried to maintain some distance in this relationship... not an easy thing since they live across the road from me. G keeps bringing up the past.. and say he's gonna "get my ass" .. and I'm talking about the literal translation here. Nah! I don't think so. If he was single, maybe... but I think H is one of the sweetest people I've ever met and I wouldn't want to do anything to hurt her. So this is not gonna happen. The only question is - how do I keep putting it off - while still being a good neighbor and friends with both of them. A touchy situation at best... but as long as I behave.. and keep saying "no" to G, things should be OK.

Saw Chris last night at the store. Didn't talk - too busy for more than a "whassup!' - but he wants to know if he can come to Tatz's for the cookout on Monday - to celebrate July 4th/my BD. Hell, I don't care - we're still friends, at least as much as two people who have been together and then broke up can be. If he comes, Tatz & Tian will give him hell. I hope he knows that. Heck - he knows - and still wants to come. It should make for an interesting day.

Enough of an update. Way too short - and I've left out a lot, but I've got to go to work in about 15 minutes. It's going to be hell tonight, as I've already explained. Maybe I'll have something to talk about in the AM. And by the way - in about 45 minutes - it'll hit midnight and I'll officially be a year older. It's my birthday. And how old am I? Too damn old - that's how old. I quit keeping track a few years ago - I'm in total denial. The curse of being a middle-aged gay man in a young man's world. Being old sucks. But it's better than the alternative, so I'd better just shut up and accept it. Yeah - sure!

I miss Marshall & Brent. I ought to give them a call tomorrow. And Ann. And Michael. And TMA (of course). I've got some wonderful and fantastic friends. I need to be a better friend. I think they all know how I feel about them - but if they' don't (and are reading this) - know that when I say, "Love ya - mean it" - it's true - it's damn true! Belee' dat!

I've gotta go to work. Have a great night - and I'll see ya on the rebound.
Love ya - mean it...
-Doug