Diary of a mad white man....

I just finished watching (and recording) the movie "Diary of A Mad Black Woman"... Very good movie. I laughed and I cried. The whole range of emotions in about 2 hours. Wow!

I've been off work since Tuesday morning, and I've just totally wasted the past two days. I've been depressed - just out of it. I was feeling OK Tuesday night - I had the house to myself and was watching a movie... and Ma came home and just ruined it. I went from feeling great to feeling like total shit in a matter of seconds. I slept most of the night and today. Ma went to Terri's this afternoon and said she'll be home tonite. She's not. I'm glad, but it's as if she intentionally said she would to prevent me from doing anything.. or having fun. I want to call Pa. I hate the little fucker - and I sure as hell don't trust him anymore, but I hate being alone. I've been alone for two days. I wanted to be off from work, but then, when I am off, I'm stuck here - either alone or with the Mother-Figure up my ass. I hate my life right now.

Happy Belated Birthday, Tian. That was yesterday (Wednesday). I thought we were doing the cake & ice cream thing, but I never heard anything from anyone, so I guess not.

No word from D. over the past couple of days. I guess he's moved on. It happens. Oh well! G. & H. were home last night. They left to go somewhere around 1:30 this morning .. and came back a little after 2. I think.. no, I'm sure that G. is back on drugs.

I really don't feel like writing tonight. BJ never showed up around the work-hole back on Monday night. I talked to Patrick (cute lil' fucker) and they hadn't seen him since Sunday night. He's probably done went and gotten himself locked up again. He's been out of jail for about 3 weeks - so it's time.

To heck with this stuff. I've got an idea floating around in my head for a story idea - lots of characters keep talking to me and demanding to be set free. This may be screenplay attempt # 3 coming forth. I'll see if I can get something started and see what happens. I have to go let the dog in now - it's almost 3 in the AM and she's outside sitting on the front porch. Poor baby girl.

I'm gone!
-Doug