It Must Be Monday....

Time for another update of the world's most f*cked up existance that no one ever reads about - thank goodness! It's Monday afternoon and I feel like crap this afternoon. No real reason - I'm just out of it. Let me recap the big moments of the past few days and then see what happens next.

Worked Friday night. They busted my ass - my inside sales beat both 1rst and 2nd shifts - in about 3/4 the time... I forgot it was 1rst of the month. I had my first drive off in over a year - a little drunken assclown bastard. Payed $20 as deposit to fill it up - pumped $38 and drove off. And what could I do? Not a damn thing! I had a store full of people lined up back to the drink coolers. I hate people sometimes.

Saturday night - busy as well, but not all that bad. Saw Pa - but he acted indifferent to me. I guess he really has finally gotten the message. And now that he's not up my ass 24-7, I miss the little bastard. Don't it figure. I swear sometimes that I'm fucked up in the head. And the rest of the time, I know it! : )

Did the family thing on Sunday. Finally got to meet Parker's friend, John. He acts just like Parker - Lord help us! Very cute kid - but he's only 14 - fixing to turn 15. So get the perverted thoughts out of the head, Dougie! At least for 4 more years. Hell, I waited for Pa to turn legal and we all see how well that turned out...lol. Seems like a good kid though.

Jesse came by and I got to meet his kid on Sunday night. That was cool. I really like this guy. He's a bit nuts, but in a good way. Dennis who???? And he's 29 - so he's not some punk kid. He's settled down a bit, has a good job and a family he really adores. A great catch. Where it's headed - I don't know. Maybe a good fling. Maybe just a friend. Right now, those seem to be in short supply. Nah - that's not true. I have good friends - but I'm just feeling empty. I need something different in my life. It's work, wrestling and meaningless relationships right now. I like all of them, but don't feel any real passion for any of them right now. And that's sad.

Damn! I'm getting depressed and it probably won't be getting any better anytime soon. The 3 hour RAW on USA network is tonight. I'll probably do a recap for noone to read. Who knows? The HQ site isn't really going yet! I keep checking, but I don't see any changes taking place. I sent Jen 23 pages of wrestling show archives that I got from the old Informer site (with permission of course) - and they're not up yet either. I should start my own site. Give up the blog site -and everything else (my mod duties at DXSI & The Zone), the columns - and just focus on having the best f*cking wrestling site on the net - done my way. Hell, that's a dream! But it'll never happen. I don't have the focus or energy or money. And let's don't even think about the technical mumbo-jumbo B.S. Jen is doing everything she can and the site looks great so far. And I always have Paps and the Wrestle-Zone UK site - thank goodness. So I have established outlets available. I just need to get more focused. Or just get laid more. One or the other.

Hell, that hasn't been a problem lately. Plenty of Mr. Right Now available - but no Mr. Right just yet! I hate this stuff and these games sometimes. But I guess, so far as things go - Mr. Right Now is better than no one at all.

Yuck! I'm tired of rambling! I'm going to bed for a few hours.
-Doug