AA & More...

Back again for another update. Where should I begin? I went to an AA meeting tonight. My first one. It wasn't what I expected, but it was interesting. There were only about 10 people there - and I saw several that I recognized and knew. I mainly just sat back and observed, listening in. I can see several positives in this and I can see how it could help some people. Whether or not it's for me, I don't quite know yet, but I'm open to giving it another chance and trying it a few more times. I'll be the first to admit that I'm probably going for the wrong reasons anyhow - just to impress the guy at my DWI hearing as I attempt to get my license back. But whether it's for the right or wrong reasons for being there, I was there and I paid attention and just soaked it all in. Just by my nature, I'm not a joiner and I'm not a big fan of opening up to strangers. (And I say this as I write in my blog for anyone in the world to come and read and learn my deepest darkest secrets! Geez! Nerd!) But here, there's still a degree of being anonymous that makes it OK. Ask me anything and I have no problem answering and talking about it. But ask me to open up the discussion and reveal myself without some poking and proding - it just doesn't work too well. Anyhow, the meeting was interesting and I'll probably go back. If for no other reason than a very cute 20 year old named Jake! Woo-hoo!

I noticed something else tonight. With the exception of myself and one other, every person at the AA meeting was a smoker. Hmmmm! Coincidence? I wonder!

Aside from that, things are quiet. Went grocery shopping with Tian this morning. Found out some disturbing news about a mutual friend. C. is a gay male, mid-twenties and he's a great guy. A bit of a diva-bitch, but that's just him. He's been involved with this other guy for a couple of years. C. was the ass around here and treated his friend like shit. Now, they've moved off to Charlotte and apparantly things have changed into an abusive relationship. The friend, Dallas, is physically abusive to C. He keeps him isolated away from his family and friends.. and the friend, and his mom, are in total control of C. and his life. And C. won't leave because he's in love. This guy has several degrees in psychology and human behaviors and he still endures this? It just doesn't make sense. Tian was filling me in on all of this early this morning and I couldn't say anything. It just doesn't sound right. C. is talking about a job promotion he is supposed to be getting and he says he's moving away from Dallas and his mom in a couple of weeks. I guess we'll just have to wait and see what happens.

Dalian is doing much better with her migranes. The doctors changed her medications and it seems to be working.

I'm still messing around with Rick and with D. too. Nothing serious with either of them. Rick is just a hang-out friend and occasional F-buddy. D. has become a good friend and something like a little brother and sidekick. We still mess around sometimes, but not all the time. It's just more hanging out now and arguing wrestling, politics, etc... He thinks "Hulk Hogan" was a good wrestler. Damn! That boy has much to learn. But I'm trying my best. He's still seeing his GF, but that's cool.

Nothing much else to mention, I guess. I'm off work tonight, so I may attempt to write a new "Six Minutes" column. I also need to go over to "MySpace" and read my mail, play around with my profile, etc. a bit. So much to do and so little time...lol.

Well, that's the update. Kind of boring, but I'm not complaining. Until the next time, see ya!
-Doug