Back To Work...

Saturday night and time for another update before I head out to work. Regular readers may have noticed that I had posted.. and then deleted a post earlier today. The ex came by the house last night - and after realizing that I was here alone - ended up staying the night. A lot of old and mixed feelings were brought to the surface.. and I ended up letting him get to me. Oh well. Can't change that, but it won't happen again. I won't let it happen again.

Talked to D. again today. His Ma is really on him about hanging out with me so much. She's heard a lot of bad stuff about me (most of it is probably true - but what can I say? I was young! I needed the money!), and while she's not trying to pick his friends or tell him who he can or can't hang out with (Bullshit! Parents always try to pick their kids friends and run their lives - it's part of the job) - she wants him and me to tone it back a bit. People are starting to talk. I should have expected this - hell, I did expect it. D., bless him, told his Ma we're friends and he doesn't give a damn what people think. That's cool, but he's lying to himself. He's 18 - and still maturing and becoming a man. He's still changing and evolving and, as much as he'd like to pretend otherwise, peer pressure is a big part of that. It helps develop who he is and who he will become. So, where this is all going??? - I don't know! I guess it's just play it by ear for a while and see what happens. I don't think we'll quit being friends and hanging out every so often, but I think things will be slowed down a bit. It's unavoidable, once the parents start getting involved. Maybe I should go talk to his Ma and try to quench her fears about me & her boy! But that could easily backfire and cause more problems. Damn! Life sucks sometimes. I guess I'll just play this one as it comes and see what happens. D. is a great guy and I want to do what's best for him. I know he's close to his Ma & the rest of the family and what they think matters a lot to him. Geez!

I'll deal with all of this later. It's time to go to work! Later!
-Doug