Falling to Pieces..

The past week has been hell in a handbasket. What better way to describe it? My nerves are shot - I just don't feel in control right now and that sucks. I guess it's better to start at the beginning of the craziness. Friday - just another fun day. Until right before time to go to work. D. came by and we talked a bit. We need to cool things off again for a while. His Mom saw his car in my driveway the other day and questioned him about it. She's getting suspicious. OK - whatever. I talk to his mom fairly regularly and she knows that we're still friends so that shouldn't be a big deal. But that's his thing so I'll play along. Saturday was OK - hung with Rick and just pissed around all day. Sunday - heard the news about Eddie Guerrero and that just shot that day to hell. I walked around in a daze most of the day trying to figure out what's happening and trying to find out everything I could. Did the family thing too on Sunday afternoon and we drew names among the adults for Christmas. I drew Andrew's name. All righty then. I know what I'd like to give him, but he's Morgan's fiance so let's just forget all that! Bad Dougy! : )

On to Monday night at work and this is where things get stupid. My neighbor, G - who I hang out with, drink with, and ward off the sexual advances of - came to the store around 3:30 am. He bought 4 cartons of cigs and used a credit card - a stolen credit card. I knew it wasn't his, but he made some B.S. story up about the girl was a friend of H's and at the house drunk and wanted cigs. My B.S. detector was going off like crazy and I informed him that I wasn't supposed to do it without her there. He pushed it and I reminded him that we're on camera and if anything comes back, he's in trouble. He kept pushing it and I finally agreed to go ahead - ringing up the smokes and he used the card - signing the girls name. He left and I went back to work. I fucked up!

I got home from work Tuesday AM and within an hour, the store was calling. I needed to go back up there and talk to a cop. Luckily, I knew the officer - we'd been friends since we were kids. Anyhow, it's all on camera. The card was stolen and they wanted to know about the guy, Glen. I was reluctant at first, but my manager reminded me that my job could be in jeopardy too - so I told Rodney - the cop - everything that happened that night and made a statement. I was released and came back home. And something is happening across the road. I haven't seen either G. or H. home now in two days. I saw detectives come by yesterday afternoon, but no one came to the door when they knocked. I just have a bad feeing. I've been feeding their dog, Midnight - since no one has been home, butI want to know what's up. If G's been arrested - so be it, but where is H? And the kid? It's just a fucked up situation and I don't know what's going on. I think that's the hard part - not knowing anything.

Other news - I had my DWI hearing yesterday AM about getting my drivers license back. Mom, Tian & Angel testified for me and I think it went OK. I'll know something in 5 - 7 business days. Well, D. is here. We've got to talk and I think walk over to H & G's house to check things out. I've got a bad feeling about all of this. I'll return later.

-Doug