Christmas Thoughts!

The first pic is what I want for Christmas. I've been good (mostly) and this is what I've asked Santa for....

The second picture - this is probably what I'll end up with.....

Yeah, it's been that kind of year.....lol.

Merry Christmas everyone!

Alone And Miserable

What do you do when you hate your life but have no way to change things? Do you give in and accept things as they are - and be miserable or do you argue and fight and make changes - make things better? Obviously, you do the latter and hope it works. I have to so something. I can't live like this much longer and that's a fact!

My Dating Profile

Your dating personality profile: Big-Hearted - You are a kind and caring person. Your warmth is inviting, and your heart is a wellspring of love. Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate. Intellectual - You consider your mind amongst your assets. Learning is not a chore but a constant search after wisdom and knowledge. You value education and rationality.

Your date match profile: Practical - You are drawn to people who are sensible and smart. Flashy, materialistic people turn you off. You appreciate the simpler side of living. Funny - You consider a good sense of humor a major necessity in a date. If his jokes make you laugh, he has won your heart. Conservative - Forget liberals, you need a conservative match. Political discussions interest you, and a conservative will offer the viewpoint you need.

Your Top Ten Traits 1. Big-Hearted 2. Liberal 3. Intellectual 4. Practical 5. Funny 6. Sensual 7. Shy 8. Wealthy/Ambitious 9. Adventurous 10. Romantic

Your Top Ten Match Traits 1. Practical 2. Funny 3. Conservative 4. Big-Hearted 5. Shy 6. Sensual 7. Traditional 8. Intellectual 9. Adventurous 10. Religious

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Friday Afternoon at the Homestead!

I feel so tired
so alone
I'm not really tired
but I am alone
always
and it seems, forever

I have friends
and lovers
but no life of substance
nothing I can look at
and be proud
and say "that's me!"
"that's mine"

this isn't living
it's existing!
but it's what I do
and the sad thing is
I have no one to blame but myself!

Ain't life a cocksucker sometimes!
Geez!

Too Much Is Sometimes Not Enough

You know, there can be too much sometimes of a good thing! For almost four years, I've been writing this column, writing recaps, writing fantasy wrestling, and just living the dream of a wrestling writer. I don't want to say "journalist" because journalists are unbiased and generally devoid of emotion or opinion. At least they're supposed to be Just the facts, ma'am! I can hardly claim to be unbiased about anything. I have my opinions and I don't mind expressing them. Whether anyone actually agrees, that's another story, but still...

A few months ago, at no one's urging, I decided to start recapping WWE Heat and WWE Velocity again. I've always enjoyed recapping shows, probably even more than writing the columns. I picked Heat and Velocity because they were the only shows I could work my crazy schedule around and also, it seemed that no one else wanted to give the WWE's "B-Shows" a little love. So I did and I think I did a pretty fair job of it! If you think I did a good job of it, give me a hell yeah! HELL YEAH!

My fantasy wrestling league also picked up and I've become quite the little storyteller, trying to string characters along in a logical, yet entertaining way as I help present an alternate version of what WCW might have become if it had stayed alive and flourished in 2000 rather than fading out and being bought up by the evil McMahon empire. For more details on the best damn fantasy WCW on the internet today, go check out www.myspace.com/fantasywcwwrestling.
But recapping two "B-shows" every week, writing a column every week (or at least every other week), running a fantasy league where readers vote to decide the winners and losers of matches and future storylines, and keeping things active at my Yahoo chat groups - that's a lot on one man's plate. That's not counting working the full time job, helping out a friend of mine to make some extra cash on the side, and attempting to have a social life as well. At times, I could manage things pretty easily. And at other times, it's just too damn much.

I've also noticed as time goes by, the more and more I get drawn into this world of wrestling, the less interest I have in other things, such as music, TV, politics, social issues, etc. For the longest time, all I do is eat, breathe, sleep and crap wrestling. I took a recent look at the majority of people I actually still hang out with in the real world. They're either involved in wrestling in some capacity, are family members, or are romantic interests. My life has become professional wrestling. Professional wrestling is me! Which is kind of cool in some ways, but in others, it's kind of scary and sad! I'm going to be forty years old in just a few days. And though I still look and act like I'm 25 (most of the time) reality is rearing it's head and opening my eyes. And I don't like what I see.

Where's the memories of going out with my friends? Where are the good times and nights at the club? Where's the Sunday afternoon cookouts and long fishing trips over the extended weekend? Some of those memories are there, but is it enough? I know I shouldn't, but I compare my life to others from my social circles - some guys are doing worse than me - they live for the beer in the afternoon and have nothing to their names. I'm luckier than that. I rarely drink anymore, never was a drug abuser, and have accomplished a little something over the years. But then I look at others - friends of mine with the good jobs, the families, the ones that seem to have everything. And I feel.. not jealous because I like to see people do well and have things and be happy...but I just wonder why I don't have the kids, the new car, the nice house, the kiler job.

I actually know the answers for most of those questions. It's all about effort and working hard. I've had chances for other jobs, but I'm comfortable in what I do and the money is OK - not great, but I pay my bills. No kids? The "gay thing" has a lot to do with that since having kids would require a woman and a committed relationship, and that's not me. But I have Tatz's and Tian's kids as my "nieces" and "nephews" so that's OK.

My problem is that I've always taken the easy road - prefering to have fun and take the shortcuts rather than struggle and sacrifice for success. I have a lot, but I could have more. The only person I can blame for what I do and don't have is myself. But all of this is getting off subject. Damn, I hate it when that happens.

The wrestling stuff - I love it and it's my life. I don't plan on giving it up anytime soon. But something is going to have to give. I think the column might be it. I like the recaps and I can opinionate quite well during my match recaps if need be. So I guess, effective immediately, the "Tossing Salt" column is on hiatus again. It's a small step, but a necessary one! The first step into getting my life in order and how I want it to be. Now if I can just find a good man and get the rest of my world straightened out, I might be OK.

Damn, this is a long and confusing blog - and not at all what I was planning on. *sighs* - I think I need to go take a walk. Later!

How To Be Offensive At A Wedding...

I found this on a sheet of paper in my desk - I don't remember where it came from - probably TMA - but it's kind of cute!!!

HOW TO BE OFFENSIVE AT A WEDDING!

Show up with a baby and claim he belongs to the newlyweds.

Cover yourself with glue to improve your chances of catching the bouquet.
Offer to show people pictures of the bride fucking a dog.

Tell people that you knew the bride before the sex change.

Tell the bride that the only reason you can look at her is that you used to be a proctologist.

Instead of a standard gift, give the newlyweds a gift certificate to a drug rehabilitaion clinic.

As you move down the receiving line, spit on each person.

As the bride's mother for a handjob.

Give the bride some Altoids and tell her it kills the taste of sperm.

Propose a toast to the bride's nose job.

Steal the cards from the wedding gifts so no one can tell who they came from.

Walk up to various guests and demand to see their invitations.

After the bride throws her garter belt, start people chanting, "Throw your bra, throw your bra!..."

Tell people that the groom had to be given Quaaludes to keep him from backing out.

Tell the rabbi that there's no money to pay him and ask if he'll settle for "shtupping the bride!"

Assure the bride's mother that the groom is "hung like a horse".

Return a bra which the bride left in your car.

When the bride is coming down the aisle, push the organist out of the way and start playing "The Lady Is A Tramp".

Yeah - a bit cheezy sometimes, but still - just imagine a wedding where someone was actually doing some of these things. I'd like to attend that one for sure. Have a great night everyone!
Until the next time...

-Doug

New Years Resolutions for 2006

New Years Resolutions for 2006.....


Today is the last day of 2005 - a New Year begins in just a few hours. I guess that means it's time for some resolutions and what i hope to accomplish during the next 365 days... Here goes..

1. Lose weight! (Doesn't everyone say this? But I'm getting older and that belly is getting bigger - so it's time to get serious!)

2. Be more responsible and reiliable with the wrestling stuff. That means at least (1) column a week - plus my fantasy stuff will continue as well. That leads into ...

3. Start my own wrestling website. I have all sorts of ideas and things I want to do - but I need my own place to do it. I've worked for others for nearly four years - and done quite well for myself. But it's time to grow and expand and do my own thing!

4. Start returning phone calls. Don't laugh! I truly suck when it comes to returning calls. I hate telephones! I don't know why - but I just do! But I love my friends so I guess sacrifices have to be made!

5. Find true love and happiness. I've got plenty of Mr. Right Nows - so it's not hard to find a hook-up anytime I get an itch. But I want something honest and true and real - not just cheap sex or a bunch of lies and B.S... I thought I had found it a while back, but it was not to be. Oh well! I don't need anyone, but I hate being alone - so let's see what happens. Any good men available out there and wanting to give it a shot.

6. Rectify my one major legal burden that hangs over me from days gone by. No details here - but I've gotta do what I've gotta do! 'Nuff said!

7. Take a vacation and gets some rest! Have fun! 'Nuff said!

And I guess that's all for now. Time to go now and sleep for a couple of extra hours before I go to work - 13 hour shift tonight! **sighs** Some things never change!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!